what to do, what to do....

do you ever feel like you ask yourself this question about seventy thousand times a day?  maybe its just me.  i feel like i'm in a constant battle with what i love to do and what is responsible to do.  i love to bake...but i need money.  money makes the freakin' world go round.....or not, as in my case.  i am a firm believer in doing what you love.  i would rather bake and struggle for money than hate my job and be a millionaire...is that okay?  i certainly thought it was fine for the majority of my life, but now that i have little piper to take care of, and am working many little jobs to keep our heads above water, i wonder.  should i try to be interested in something else?  or maybe God made me this way for a reason.  not everyone is meant to be the CEO of a multi million dollar company.  the thought of sitting in an for 8 hours a day makes me want to gauge my eyes out with a spoon, no matter how fun pam and jim make it look.  i want piper to look at my life when she is old enough and be inspired that i did what i believed i was meant to do.  i don't want her to see that i got stuck working a dead end job because of a difficult circumstance.  i want her to know that she inspires me to do what i love to do, even when its not easy.   i am holding on to hope that doing what i love AND being financially stable CAN coexist in my life.  it has to be possible.