i have so much to say but it will not come out. its like i go over and over this thing in my head and its just stuck there. i feel like my brain is a broken record. it could work, it can't work, its not going to work, give it a chance. back and forth and over and over. its exhausting. i don't know the right answers and i can't see the future. i don't know what will happen either way. and its terrifying. but deep down, i don't want to know. i want to find out by living it.
people say to live life to its fullest. well there are about a billion different ways that this could be done. each decision leads to a different path. each choice is one that kills a part of what your life could have been. weather you are decided to have a chocolate chip or a molasses cookie, or deciding to say yes or no when that person has asked you THE question.
life is fragile. life is a roller coaster. life is an adventure. life is joyful. life is full of pain and tears, and laughter and happiness. life is full of unanswered questions and irrevocable truths. everything happens the way it does for a reason. it is what forms that thing we call our life. i thank God for the truths, and even for the tears, because they have made me who i am. they have made this life what it is today, and they will make it what it is going to be.
i am unsure and i am hurt and i am confused and i am lonely and
i am positive and i am healing and i am enlightened and i am loved.
